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Dear Mother

Fri Dec 11, 2009, 9:15 AM
Going Down In Flames

Don't tell me what to think
Cause I don't care this time
Don't tell me what to believe
Cause you won't be there
To catch me when I fall
But you'll need me when I'm not here at all
Miss me when I'm gone again, yeah

I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again, yeah
I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again

Don't tell me how life is
Cause I don't really want to know
Don't tell me how this game ends
Cause we'll just see how it goes
Catch me when I fall
Or you'll need me when I'm not here at all
Miss me when I'm gone again, yeah

I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again, yeah
I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again, yeah

Now, I'm all the way down here
I'm falling
I'm all the way down here
I'm falling down again
I'm falling down
I'm falling down
I'm falling down

I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again,
I'm going down in flames
I'm falling into this again

Now, I'm all the way down here
I'm falling
All the way
All the way down here
I'm falling down again now I'm falling down
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  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Reading: David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
  • Watching: Merlin

Still Alive

Thu Mar 19, 2009, 8:58 AM
Haven't updated in a while... Not much worth updating. I seem to draw a lot less lately.
School's getting in the way, for one. At largely because of my Drawing exam. I've tackled myself and decided to do a comic about the city "Isaura" -one of the subjects you could choose from. It's making me crazy, drawing about 18-24 panels a day, always the same characters. Maybe it's something I'll grow to appreciate, but right now I'm thinking "I'll finish this and be damn proud about it, but never again!"

Each time I visit dA or Hyves, whatever site there is out there, it makes me feel somewhat sad. The people in my watchlist are pretty much all popular artists out here. And all the people on my watchlist are pretty much friends and familiars. And then, somewhere I still feel hope about ever achieving more than that, my 'breakthrough', but at the same time, dissapointment because somewhere down I hear something telling me; "you're not that good." and then I know that it's true.

I guess I should be more thankful. I live in a prosperous country, I have my own laptop, freedom to draw and write, a good education, a secure home, friends who care about me and with who I have fun. Is it not enough to be loved? Why do I want to be adored?
When I read journals from others, I get jealous about their peacefulness and content with the way of life. I don't think I am content, or ever will be. No one will ever do it right from my point of view, and that's horrible. And that's why I'll often act content, or happy. I can be happy, and I sometimes get a weird sense of peace, but it tends to vanish quite quickly.

So thank you, dear watchers, no matter how few or how many. I am just a girl who likes to draw. I won't dream of worldwide fame anymore =p It's time to grow up.

  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: Alkaline Trio
  • Reading: Wilde Zwanen
  • Watching: Paradise Kiss
  • Playing: Portal (Prelude)

Settle for Satin

Sat Mar 7, 2009, 1:53 PM
It's not so much a storm,
but just a cloud that lives inside of me
he doesn't stir so easily these days,
but when he wakes he goes the distance
in a marathon of days too long
open containers that sing songs,
"you'll never dream again,
but you can pray"

I guess we only settle in to what we know
I guess we always settle in, and we know.
But there is comfort in a world
where darkness is the only thing we see
and cold is all we have to breathe
where affectations keep us company,
where the lies we tell to the eyes that roll in doubt
are somehow out of our control.


it's not about the scars, but more the crowds that walk all over me
they don't give up too easily these days,
but when they break they go to pieces.
fall apart right here in north side bars
under a sky that knows no stars
you'll never shine again,
but you will stay.

© Alkaline Trio

  • Mood: Lonely

Mass-Favers + vacation

Fri Aug 8, 2008, 3:06 PM
How do they do it? Seriously, I'm stunned by it!

Not being an artist on the top of popularity (although I very much appreciate my friends :3) I count my favorites as blessings, although stranger comments are even more loveable,as they mean more.
But my last dev I uploaded received a fav within two seconds, I believe! And as it has been ever so often, it was a Mass-favver, and my deviation has already moved on to the fourth page of his collections. I can't help but wonder, how is it they can skim through deviations so quickly? Do they have an enormously fast connection, or mutiple computers, I don't understand!
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In other news, I'm home again xD . Yesterday I arrived home once more. My first destination had been the Czech Republic from July 20 to July 30. It was very impressive, especially the Bohemian Paradise. But I was very glad to be home, be it for a few days. On August 3 my mother drove me to Fryslân, one of the Dutch provinces, although a rather 'special' one. It has its own language, own habits. I was there to spend a few days with ~Hild3 on the camping, and I got to sail for the first time in my life! I'm very proud that I actually managed to make myself useful on the boat and that the captain (Hilde's father) was actually content about my work. Plus, I got a tan which is rare for me.
School's starting a week from now. and I just don't know. I'll only have a few from my old friends, and I'll be lucky if I even get in the same class with my best. I hope we at least end up in the same History class, that'll be important for our big project =p.
That's about it, I'm really going to sleep now!

  • Mood: Relief
  • Reading: Interview with a Vampire - Anne Rice
  • Playing: Mamba

Character RP

Fri Jun 20, 2008, 8:43 AM
Uhm, I think I passed school this year =) Mostly 7 and 8's. I have yet to receive my last grades though! How 've you all been?

Warning! Very,very long meme! Fun but long! from *Rynnay


1. Tinka
2. Yana
3. Charn
4. Naonami
5. Rikai
6. Lior
7. Yourick
8. Renate
9. Ami
10. Cassius
11. Ayn
12. Timothy

1.) 5(Rikai) and 7(Yourick) are trapped in a room. There's only one window 12 feet above the ground. How do they get out?
Yourick doesn’t think and just jumps out –breaking a leg or so. Rikai enwraps herself in water with her bad-ass magic, then heals Yourick –cause she’s nice and all.

2.) 2 (Yana), 4 (Naonami), and 9 (Renate) are on a shopping spree and they all find something they all want...but there's only one left. Who gets it?
Uhm, Yana. Renate has a lot of money and a special designer for herself, Naonami would probably be like ‘it’ll suit you better, cause’ you’re prettier’. Besides, they’d pity Yana for never being able to shop.

3.) 1 (Tinka) and 8 (Renate) have a break dancing contest. Who would win?
Renate. She’s had lessons in all forms of dancing, so yeah. (videoclips and all)

4.) Think 11(Ayn) could be a super model?
No. She’s way too mediocre. And too shy xD

5.) Would 12(Timothy) and 3(Charn) team up to slay a dragon?
No lol xD Both are way too arrogant to work together. Charn would kill it by himself –Timothy’s guns wouldn’t work without Ayn.

6.) 7(Yourick) turns out to be a murderer. What does 2(Yana) think of it?
She’d cry a river, then adjust and realize it’s pretty logical, since he’s in a psych ward…

7.) Would you ever see 6(Lior) and 10(Cassius) together?
Ha, no. Cassius would try about twenty times to kill Lior before Lior gets tired of it and kill him.

8.) 1(Tinka) and 4(Naonami) are having a fist fight. What does 8(Renate) do about it?
Try for a while to stop it, then be tired of it and be like; ‘Fine, kill each other for all I care.’ But keep watching.

9.) Why would 6(Lior) be afraid of 7(Yourick)?
He’s got a soul… Oh noes =o

10.) Who would get to bed earlier? 11(Ayn) or 5(Rikai)?
Ayn. She gets tired easily. Besides, Rikai won’t sleep anywhere if she isn’t 100% sure it’s safe.

11.) If 2(Yana) had a special plushie but 3(Charn) spilled soda all over it when 2(Yana) was away, what would 3(Charn) do to cover it up?
He’d wash it super-quick. Cause if Yana’s away, she’s away for about two weeks or so xD

12.) Would 6(Lior) steal something if they had a chance?
Nah. He would have someone else do it.

13.) If 7(Yourick) ever dressed up in a dress, what would 12(Timothy) think?
That he’s a fucking psycho (and he would be right!)

14.) Who's smarter? 10(Cassius) or 9(Ami)?
Ami. Cassius is really the muscle, Ami is just there to make up theories and write clues down.

15.) Does 4(Naonami) get embarrassed by 7(Yourick) a lot?
No, she barely knows the dude and doesn’t really care.

Here's another, same characters:

1) Who would make a better college professor: 6(Lior), or 11(Ayn)?
Ayn. She’d be really patient and wouldn’t try killing all her students. And she’d teach them a lot of morals and values and stuff!

2) Do you think 2(Yana) is hot? How hot?
She’s okay. Pretty skinny, a bit small, bit curly, blonde hair. But I’m a girl, so no.

3) 12(Timothy) sends 8(Renate) on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?
He’d would tell her to get some emergency energy supplies. She’d fail miserably since she’d have to kill an animal and has NO idea how to collect energy.

4) What is, or would be, 9(Ami's) favourite book?
The Cassius Twins, part IV ~that’s his own book!
Beings of the Under Realms. Vampirelics books.

5) Would it make more sense for 2(Yana) to swear fealty to 6(Lior), or the other way around?
This way around, totally. Yana’s a Channeler, meant to protect others, while Lior is like, the Prince of the Underworld and all…

6) For some reason, 5(Rikai) is looking for a roommate. Should they share a studio apartment with 9(Ami), or 10(Cassius)?
Ami! He’s much more patient and nice. Besides, they can have all kinds of discussions together. Cassius smokes and is really untidy; he likes to tease people a lot too.

7) 2 (Yana), 7(Yourick), and 12(Timothy) have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?
A mess hall or something –they don’t want to stand out. Timothy would brag about his flying adventures for a while, before Yana and Yourick would stop listening and begin discussing the problems they are momentarily facing –cause they’re always facing problems. Timothy would get irritated and leave –without paying, of course.

8.) 3(Charn) challenges 10(Cassius) to a duel. What happens?
Cassius shoots a charge of silver bullets into Charn’s chest and then pour liquid silver in his mouth before taking him to sick bay and explaining to the doctor that he was rebelling. Charn would be forced to have bed rest for about a year and never talks to this Cassius again.

9) If 1(Tinka) stole 8 (Renate's) most precious possession, how would they get it back?
She’d sent all her fans and groupies after Tinka. Dunnow if she’ll be successful however. But she’d try it with the force of numbers.
(hm, on the other side, her fans would probably retain the possession, then treasure it because it’s their idols most precious possession, and thereby of incredible value to them).

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7(Yourick) and 12(Cassius) both attain what they most desire.
Anger management. Oooh, classic XD

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4(Naonami) and 1(Tinka) to work together?
Having Julian kidnap Dan. That would work like a charm.

12) If 7(Yourick) visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?
He would be on the train home before the first day’s over.

13) If you could command 3(Charn) to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?
To kill my greatest enemy.

14) Does anyone on your friends list resemble 11(Ayn)?
Hm, no, well… No…

15) If 2(Yana) had to choose sides between 4 (Naonami) and 5(Rikai), which would it be?
Naonami. They’d be able to stand each other.

16) What might 10(Cassius) shout while charging into battle?
For our cleansing! (yeah, he’s clean xD)

17) If you chose a song to represent 8(Renate), which song would you choose?
She’s the Blade - Sugarcult

18) 1(Tinka), 6 (Lior), and 12(Timothy) are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake left, and they all reach for it at the same time. Who gets to eat it?
Tinka wouldn’t even try grabbing it then. Timothy would grab it, but Lior would tell him to give it. Then he would grab it out of Timothy’s hand, since Timothy is unconscious.

19) What might be a good pick-up line for 2(Yana) to use on 10(Cassius)?
“Want me to save your world?” LOL fail ><

20) What would 5(Rikai) most likely be arrested for?
Uhm… Pffft, well… Piracy maybe? The theft of someone’s magic? Performing dark magic? Something like that. She’d get the death penalty without someone having to specify it, I think.

21) What is 6(Lior's) secret?
Yeah, great idea, let’s ruin the whole plot while we’re at it! Read the story. One day you’ll find out >:3

22) If 11(Ayn) and 9(Ami) were racing to a destination, who would get there first?
Ayn. She’d fly Timothy’s plane.


23) If you had to walk home through a bad neighborhood late at night, would you feel safer in the company of 7(Yourick) or 8(Renate)?
Yourick. He’d kick ass like crazy if we were threatened or anything.

24) 1(Tinka) and 9(Ami) reluctantly team up to save the world from the threat posed by 4(Naonami's) sinister secret organization. 11(Ayn) volunteers to help them, but it is later discovered that she is actually a spy for 4 (Naonami).

Meanwhile, 4(Ayn) has kidnapped 12(Timothy) in an attempt to force their surrender. Following the wise advice of 5(Rikai), they seek out 3(Charn), who gives them what they need to complete their quest. What title would you give this fic?

Saving of the Worlds or something lame like that.

  • Mood: Relief
  • Listening to: Jimmy Eat World - Gotta Be Somebody's Blues
  • Reading: The Merry Men - RL Stevenson / a lot
  • Watching: Last Exile (again)
  • Playing: Mamba
  • Eating: Coffee Drops

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